8.2.99
there is nothing out of the ordinary happening in my life right now that
possesses me to say this, but i feel amazing. i am as tired as i could be
and i have more than one major life decision to make at this point. but i
am so happy with the friends that i have made this summer that i can be
thankful for my problems just the same as i worry about them, and i know
that i am supported. i can look at tonight's sky and feel like i am
seeing the stars for the first time, feel like i have never seen something
as awesome as the way space appears dome-like above us in the night sky.
just as easily as i could cry at this moment over all the things that make
me hurt in this life, i can look up at the sky and have contentment. i could
never put into words what this place does for me, but if i decide that there
is a god, this is its gift to me. i once thought that i was in love and was
wrong. then i wondered what love is. this is it.